Tuesday, July 30, 2013

Celibacy


Value is given,
Not inherent
Gold is valuable
Because it’s hard to get
Love is valuable
Because it’s hard to keep
Sex?
That’s worthless,
Because you can get that
Anywhere.

People say relationships need
Love and sex
Mixing the rare and the worthless
Don’t they know a scam when they see one?
Love you make, sex you give.
How could something used as a
Bargaining chip
Be necessary?

A challenge unspoken
“You’re a woman, aren’t you?”
“You’re a man, don’t you want it?”
Motive and lust complicating our lives
Twisted needs defining the people we see
Boy, girl, man, woman.
Perverted, innocent, sex fiend, sex object.

Cut through the lies to find the truth underneath
Cast away lies, drama, secrets
Embrace honesty, straightforwardness, clear-thinking
Value yourself, others, and the simple joys in life
Dissect yourself to take the blinders from your eyes.
How does who you are affect who you meet?
How do your blinders blind or cage others?
See the world how it is
And not how people make it,
Simple things blown up like bouncy houses
If it doesn’t deflate in the middle of your party,
It’ll explode another day.

Wednesday, July 17, 2013

Bad Feelings (Emotion)


Tangled, twisted, tempting
Concealed, undercover, covert
They are snakes slithering in shadows

They are thorny vines caressing my face
And stabbing my back
They change my wants and needs,
Completely hypnotizing my simple mind
No control
Contrasting, conflicting, controversial
Love and apathy or day and night
Simple annoyance becomes a glaring signal,
Unseen by all but the paranoid
Allies secretly plotting,
An old informant is compromised

How can I live when my senses lie?
How can you love him?
Stockholm Syndrome, shameless victim
You’re poor, pathetic Patty Hearst
So confidently incorrect,
So fiercely dependent.

Turning your back on such lies,
How can you live without emotion?
Embracing the suck,
How can you be yourself?
Treading carefully between the two,
Can you survive that tightrope?
Grin and bear it,
Can you stand to watch when you shatter like glass?
Out of all of the options,
It seems like my only choice is to be an acrobat,
I must learn a new lifestyle
Rather than duct tape my life together
When the other options fail

Though experience shows tightrope walking to be
Impossibly difficult
I know I must learn this skill
If I ever plan to love again
As this may happen sooner than I think,
I better learn quick.